The Ocean, Blue

I love the ocean. And not because it’s beautiful or seems like a paradise…

Though the beauty and paradise it holds…

To me, the ocean blue is so much more

The symbolism of beauty and life and fear and death…

The ocean is all this in one; stability and depth


Though I have to wonder: Is life chasing death or is death chasing life?

Is the ocean itself a paradise or is a paradise beyond the ocean?



“How can you ‘love your neighbor as yourself’ if you don’t love yourself?”

Out of all – faith, hope, and love – love is the greatest…

The Bible also says to love your neighbors as yourself… But “How can you ‘love your neighbor as yourself’ if you ‘hate’ yourself?”

This is the question that I have asked myself and other leaders in the church in the past…. I do love others…but I just don’t love myself.

I would like to share a story with you about my struggle and journey through this battle…and what loving your neighbor truly means.

This past year I sat at church listening to a service about “love you neighbor as yourself.” I could barely concentrate because of the thoughts that began to form as words came out of the pastor’s mouth….

I am a loving person…I try to spread love to everyone as much as I can. But I hate myself. If I treated everyone as I treated myself, I would be selfish and hateful and unforgiving. The evil one whispered in my ears and I began to hate myself even more. I began to doubt my Christian faith because I saw nothing wrong with hating myself and trying to love others the best I could. Little did I know that hating myself – the lack of self-love – was the real problem. Christianity was never the problem.

It is sad that I allowed these lies to scream at me. But one day, I was quiet and still and the Holy Spirit spoke words to me that I could not comprehend at the time. I have to start loving myself…somehow. I decided I would try to love myself, though I doubted I would change. Let me tell you, it was difficult to even try to love myself. At this time, I began practicing more yoga and tried praying that God would change me and my heart. As I learned to love myself, others saw a change in me. I was blind to this change.

There was a retreat coming up so I decided to take advantage of going. I had never been to a Catholic retreat until this time and it was exciting and beautiful. We were in front of our Lord singing in worship and praise, adoring Him. At the end of the retreat, there was prayer ministry. I was extremely nervous but knew I should be prayed over. This prayer changed my life. The two who prayed over me prayed for my body, soul, and spirit: the struggles I am going through, the physical pain, the mental struggles, and spiritual struggles. I truly felt the burning love and passion Jesus has for me enter and fill me. It was so beautiful. And after, I felt a longing sense of peace wash over me, I knew I was loved.

After this experience, I went to adoration and daily mass as often as I could. Everyone around me told me they saw a change and I could somewhat see that change when they mentioned it. I was so much happier and I began loving myself. I also noticed that I was able to love others so much more than before!

I feel like the way I loved before, I was using all my power as a human to love. But when I began communing with the Holy Spirit more often, I feel that I was loving others in a more spiritual sense, closer to how Jesus loves. I know we will never be able to love the way Jesus does, but the more we seek a relationship with Him, the more we can love like He loves.

When I realized the difference between the way we love as a human vs the way we love with the Spirit, I understood why Jesus says to “Love your neighbor as yourself.” We are told that our bodies are a temple…it houses the Holy Spirit. We ought to love our bodies and treat them well…not misuse them. But God created us in His image…so we should love ourselves, we should never hate ourselves. By loving ourselves, we are being humble and submitting to God. We are allowing the Spirit to work through us to love others. When the Spirit works within, we can love others how Jesus loves us.

John 15: 12-13: This is My commandment, that you love one another as I loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Let us all try to treat ourselves with a little more respect and love ourselves a little bit more. He would want us to. And of course, you probably won’t be able to love yourself overnight. It takes time…life is a journey. I still have those “bad days.” That does not make you any less of a person. Keep going.

 ~When you begin to love yourself more, you will realize how much you can truly love others. ~


 John 15: 12-13: This is My commandment, that you love one another as I loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

Romans 5:1-5: Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access [by faith] to this grace in which we stand, and we boast in hope of the glory of God.  Not only that, but we even boast of our afflictions, knowing that affliction produces endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the holy Spirit that has been given to us.

~Peace and Love~

E. Nicole


Love is the greatest of all – faith, hope, and love – But how can you truly love if you have no hope?



I am just a seed planted in the ground waiting to sprout.

But the rain keeps pouring and doesn’t think to stop.


When will the sun decide to shine through this darkness I am in?

Even if it decides to shine, will I be able to come back annually with the friends I make?

…Will I even make friends?


I hope I don’t drown in the rain…

They always say the sun will shine the next day

…but what if it doesn’t?


Then I hear a voice from above:

“We boast in hope of the glory of God…. and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts…”


I question all my thoughts at once…


How did I become so hopeless?

How could I not remember that God has poured out this love for me?


This love surely is filled with Hope of God’s plan…

There is nothing I fear because He loved first.


At once, the sun decided to shine and the rain decided to cease.

Filled with enough love, I began to sprout and see the beautiful rainbow.


God really does love me –

how could I doubt hope?

How could I have ever doubted God’s beautiful plan?


Before I knew it, I began to bloom

and others could see His beauty and creation through me.


I never knew this day would come and it finally has.

I know I will not just bloom annually, but


I will bloom eternally.


“Hope, the driving force that gives me a reason to live another day.” *


*Quote from a very close friend of mine


Many people think to “hope” is to want or wish….

I want to share with you that Hope (a hope from God) is not uncertain. Hope, in its purest form is from and of God. Hope is His promise and His will. Hope is more than wishful thinking. Hope is “I am.”


 John13:7: Jesus answered and said to him, “What I am doing, you do not understand now, but you will understand later.”

Romans 5:1-5: Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access [by faith] to this grace in which we stand, and we boast in hope of the glory of God.  Not only that, but we even boast of our afflictions, knowing that affliction produces endurance, and endurance, proven character, and proven character, hope, and hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the holy Spirit that has been given to us.

April Update [Patience]: God’s Will

Patience. Patience is the theme I chose for the year 2016. Patience is the characteristic I plan to constantly work on throughout the year…and let me tell you, it has been difficult. For anyone who knows me, they know that I am the most impatient gal out there. However, I know in my heart that being impatient is not loving.

It seems as if the moment I decided and discerned that this year will be about becoming more patient, God has taken it to a whole new level. I honestly did not imagine that trying to be more patient would be so difficult! I wrote in February about God showing me that HE is the true model of patience and how the Holy Spirit has, ever so gently, been teaching me what true patience is (you can read that post here).  In this post, I mentioned how the Holy Spirit spoke to me: “You say you’re opening your heart and are wanting to accept what is planned for you….but are you actually willing to accept His plan?”

I must say, I have been feeling pretty torn between what I want for my life and what God wants for my life. Ever since February, I have been placed His plan on the back burner, simply because I want to follow the plan I have made for my own life. I know.. selfish, right?

Fortunately, our God is a patient God. Though I have been putting myself in front of Him, He still hasn’t walked away. He keeps perusing me. He is so persistent, yet so patient. His call is so persistent; it is hard for me to ignore it anymore.   I have been looking at what God’s plan for my life looks like verses what my plan for my life looks like. Through prayer and meditation, the Holy Spirit has been teaching me what it truly means to follow what God has planned for me and why I would want to follow His plan.

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I am a Child. A child of God. The daughter of our Creator. The daughter of Christ.

Before I was formed in the womb, our Creator knew me….He knew me. He knew every thought, action, sin, act of kindness, decision I would ever make in my life. He even knows how many hairs are on my head…

Our God loves me so much and only wants the best for me. I am loved so much by our Creator Jesus was sent so I could have a personal relationship with the One who made me. But in order for this to happen, He had to be beaten and scorned… He had to suffer death and die on the cross. Only so I could be saved from eternal damnation. And because I am loved so much, I have the Holy Spirit with me all the time directing me and guiding me. The love our God has for us is truly one of a kind…it is truly unconditional.

How can I ever be so selfish and trust my own decisions and do what I want to do for my life?? After all He has been through just to save me??

Thanks be to God that He is so patient. Though it took too long for me to see my selfishness and pride, I know I can no longer live for myself. Learning to trust God has been difficult. But He created me…He knew me before my Earth parents knew me…How can I not trust Him? And how can I trust myself when He knows every decision and action I will ever make?

I believe the one person in the Bible who truly displays this trust and obedience is Mary. An angel shows up to her and tells her she will conceive and bear a son, called Son of the Most High. And Mary questions this since she hasn’t had any relations with a man. And the angel basically says that nothing will be impossible for God. Then at that moment, Mary knew and replied “May it be done to me according to your word.”


Mary is going to conceive the Savior of the World and she said “yes” to God’s plan. I am so grateful she wasn’t selfish like me and didn’t decide to follow her own plans. If she didn’t say that “yes” to His Will, we wouldn’t have been saved by Jesus.

I am striving to follow God’s plan rather than my own. A divine plan is so much greater than a human one. It would be far more worth it to drop everything and follow Jesus than to go about life looking for fulfillment in material things.

One note I would like to leave: If we don’t trust God, then who do we trust?

~Peace and Love~

E. Nicole

What defines “Beauty”?


What is “beauty?”

Beauty is the quality of being physically attractive, according to the Merriam-Webster Dictionary.

Society defines beauty as thin, breakable, fragile, innocent.

I believe that beauty arises from the inner soul, where peace and love can be found and shown to others.

Somehow in the world, we have warped our self-identification. We accept how others (the world) define us, even if it’s true or not.  We accept an identity that defines us as “a failure,” “weak,” “slut,” “fat,” “crazy,” etcetera.

These identities strip away the beauty that we are…. Until we believe we are not beautiful anymore.

But we are not what others say we are.  We are so much more than all those words… those “identities”…that we have accepted.

But who are we underneath those “identities?”…. who are you?

My favorite quote is, “Can you remember who you were, before the world told you who you should be?” by Danielle LaPorte.

Before the world, our identity rested in the hands of God, where peace and love is found… where beauty is found.


Jeremiah 1:4-5 (NIV): “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”

Jeremiah 29:11(NIV): For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

We forget that we are a child of God, made beautifully in His image.


Genesis 1:27 (NIV): So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.

Psalm 139:14 (NIV): I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.


Let’s starts peeling off these false identities from the world and claim the identity God has made for us.

Romans 12:2 (NIV): Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.



Links to view:

2 people described the same person to a forensic artist:

Jessica Simpson visits Uganda to redefine beauty, “The Price of Beauty”:

Coffee wtih Jesus: A Message from the Book of Jeremiah

Jeremiah Bible and Coffee

Hello everyone reading my post or following my blog.  First, I want to apologize for not being very consistent with my blogging.  School and work have been crazy!  But I am going to try to start blogging at least every Sunday (may not start this until after Finals though)!

But today, I felt on my heart to post a blog today.  Maybe others can relate to this message that the Holy Spirit has asked me to share, like I can.

Before I begin, I want to say I was questioning whether I should write a post or not….”I really need to start studying for my finals”….”Does God really want me to write this right now?”  So I pulled out my computer and I started to do what I always do when I turn my computer on: check my emails.  Of course I hear a soft voice whisper to me, “Do not get distracted.” So I must say, I can pretty confidently tell you that maybe this is what God wants…maybe He not only has a message for me, but for someone else reading this.

Grab your morning cup of coffee and let’s begin today’s message from Jeremiah.

I felt God calling me to three specific verses and passages as I sipped my coffee and opened my Bible.  The past few days, God has been wanting me to read more and study in The Book of Jeremiah, but I didn’t want to.  This morning was different: God was commanding me to in the gentlest way.

[I’m not going to share the verses directly in order from the beginning of the book to the end, but in the order in which the Holy Spirit exposed them to me.]

The first passage is from Jeremiah 29:11-12 – (11) For I know well the plans I have in mind for you…plans for your welfare, not for your woe, so as to give you a future of hope. (12) When you call me, and come and pray to me, I will listen to you. (NAB)

[I am not going to talk too much about this verse right now, but I will talk about it later on to tie everything together.]

The second passage is from Jeremiah 8:1-9, specifically.  This passage is quite long.  Feel free to read it from your Bible, but I have copied it here from (Not 100% sure which translation they use, perhaps the NJB):

1 ‘When that time comes, Yahweh declares, the bones of the kings of Judah, the bones of its chief men, the bones of the priests, the bones of the prophets and the bones of the inhabitants of Jerusalem, will be taken from their tombs.

2 They will be spread out before the sun, the moon, the whole array of heaven, whom they have loved and served, followed, consulted and worshipped. They will not be gathered or reburied but will be left lying on the surface like dung.

3 And death will seem preferable to life to all the survivors of this wicked race, wherever I have driven them, Yahweh Sabaoth declares.

4 ‘You are to tell them, “Yahweh says this: If someone falls, can he not stand up again? If people stray, can they not turn back?

5 Why does this people persist in acts of infidelity, why does Jerusalem persist in continuous infidelity? They cling to illusion, they refuse to turn back.

6 I have listened attentively: they have never said anything like that. Not one repents of wickedness saying: What have I done? Each one keeps returning to the course like a horse charging into battle.

7 Even the stork in the sky knows the appropriate season; turtledove, swallow and crane observe their time of migration. But my people do not know Yahweh’s laws!”

8 How can you say, ‘We are wise, since we have Yahweh’s Law?’ Look how it has been falsified by the lying pen of the scribes!

9 The wise are put to shame, alarmed, caught out because they have rejected Yahweh’s word. What price their wisdom now?

10 So I shall give their wives to other men, their fields to new masters, for, from the least to greatest, they are all greedy for gain; prophet no less than priest, all of them practise fraud.

Though this passage is speaking to a specific group at this time, who worshipped things other than God (and many of these people were just very corrupt), we can look at this today to learn as well.   To me, this passage speaks to the false idols we have in front of God.  We reject God’s word and don’t repent and turn back.  There’s so much in this passage that can be taken, but this is how the Lord is speaking to me…We all have gifts from God, but if we use them against God (for greed), then it is not for God and is then falsely practice, making it sinful.  If we put false Gods in our lives, we will begin practicing falsely.  We will no longer be what God called us to be.  Again, there’s so much to take from this passage, I am not going to speak to all of it.  Please listen to the Lord and hear what He tells you.  Be still and listen.

The third passage is from Jeremiah 1:4-8…This is Jeremiah speaking with the Lord…

(4) The word of the Lord came to me: (5) Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you, before you were born, I dedicated you a prophet to the nations I appointed you. (6) “Ah, Lord God!” I said. “I do not know how to speak. I am too young.” (7) But the Lord answered me. Do not say “I am too young.” To whomever I send you, you shall go; whatever I command you, you shall speak. Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver you.

This passage is obviously speaking of Jeremiah’s call to prophecy.  Jeremiah was destined to become a prophet before his birth. Though Jeremiah is weary of this call, God reminds Jeremiah that God is with Jeremiah to deliver him.  To me, this is very powerful.  God also knows us before we were formed in the womb.  We are all called to get out of our comfort seats soon enough and to just follow God where He calls us.  We do not have to be afraid because He will deliver us….He is always with us….He knows us…He knows us far more than our parents knows us….He knows how many hairs we have on our heads!! We really have nothing to be afraid of.

I would like to bring all these passages together for the message the Holy Spirit has placed on my heart:

God already knows the plans he has for us, He knew all this before we were even formed in the womb! How amazing is that?!  This plan is not a selfish, grievous plan; like Jeremiah 29:11 says, His plan is for our well-being, for our good, for our happiness!  We must break down all the barriers and false Gods that we have placed in front of our true Lord, God.  If we are too involved in the material world, we may never know God’s love.  We have to repent and turn to God to fully experience the love He has for us.   He has called each and every one of us to follow Him and to know Him.  His love truly extends the realm of the Earth into eternity….for He know us before we ever entered the womb of our mothers.  When we listen to the Holy Spirit and finally know the plan He has for us and follow through with it, we will know eternal joy and eternal peace. But first, we must know eternal love (by breaking down false gods).

After I received this inspirational message, I looked down at my almost empty coffee cup.  The coffee cup I chose to drink from today reads, “Outside the will of God there is nothing I want; Inside the will of God there is nothing I fear.”  This wasn’t a coincidence, but in align with God’s plan.

~Peace and Love~

E. Nicole

February Update [Patience]

Excerpt from “2016 Theme for the New Year”:

I know there will be many trials, but this is why I cannot go through the year alone. I need God and the Holy Spirit to be with me and guide me in the right direction…or I will go nowhere. I know there will be times I will be tested, but as long as I continue to remind myself to remain calm and patient, then maybe I will be quiet enough for the Holy Spirit to speak to me. The Holy Spirit is calm and sometimes quiet. Therefore I must also be quiet to hear that small, still voice.

Starting off the year has been pretty tough. With it already being February, I wanted to take some time and reflect on how my year has started out in regards to the “theme of the year.” Throughout the month of January and especially the start of February, I feel that God has been testing me on what it truly means to be patient and trust in him completely.

I would like to go back to the definition of calm: “a period or condition of freedom from storms, high winds, or rough activity of water” (merriam-webster). Like I have said before, we are constantly going through a storm or high winds. To be calm isn’t necessarily about being free from the storm; it’s about allowing God to take control because we will never have control. However, if I am calm and work with the storm, allowing God to intervene, then I will truly be free.

For a while now, I have been struggling with a specific plan in which God may be leading me. This year, I have been constantly seeking God and asking for discernment when it comes to this. This has been very difficult for me because this plan is surrounded by a storm and I am engulfed in the storm.

Though I thought I have been patient, I have actually not been patient when it comes to this “plan” of my life. I have been constantly praying and asking God for clarity – demanding an answer now instead of being patient and allowing God to speak to me.

After church on Monday, I stayed after to pray particularly about clarity of God’s plan for me. Because I was practically demanding an answer from God, I didn’t receive an answer (what a surprise, right? We all know He works in our lives when we don’t expect Him to). With that being said, the Holy Spirit put one thing on my heart as I was LEAVING. I could have been completely oblivious to this, but because I was so open and not searching for an answer at this point, I received the words from the HS so clearly…

The Holy Spirit spoke to me in this way:

“You say you’re opening your heart and are wanting to accept what is planned for you….but are you actually willing to accept His plan?”

This hit me hard, because I knew I was demanding an answer and even if I knew God’s plan….would I be willing to accept it at this point in my life? Probably not…

This is what was placed on my heart when reflecting upon and contemplating these words:

God is so patient. He is there, arms wide open WAITING for US to return to Him! He is CONSTANTLY being patient with us every time we turn away. And this is not only amazing, but humbling. Very humbling. He is so patient with me yet I am not being patient with Him. He has a plan for all of us, but who am I to demand to know this plan now? His humility is teaching me that it is okay to be patient with myself and prepare myself for what’s in store. When it is time, I will know. Right now, my only job is to pursue Jesus and follow the Holy Word of God. When I am willing to accept God’s plan, He will make it known. And it is very humbling to me that God wants me to be patient like Him.

I am going to start reading the Book of Romans and perhaps during Lent, I will be more accepting to what God has in store and maybe the Holy Spirit will speak to me.

These two Psalms have never spoken so much life to me as they do now…

Psalm 46:10 ~ 10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

Proverbs 3:5-3:6 ~ 5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. 6 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.


The definition of addiction, according to Google is: “the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.”


As humans, we tend to classify ourselves under certain “categories” of where we “belong.”  This is more of a society problem that leads to an individual problem.  When we are labeled and put under a certain groups, we begin to identify by the name of this group. When a person is stereotypically labeled, the person has no choice but to live under this label, this new “name.” For example, a person labeled a “nerd” in high school may begin to live as though this label is who they are. This “nerd” may not explore the greater because they now have to live up to this label, “the nerd.”


Same goes for addictions.

If you are told that you are an “alcoholic”….

If you are told you are a “cutter”….

If you are told you are “bulimic”….

If you are told you are “anorexic”….

If you are told you are a “smoker”….

If you are told you are “depressed”….

If you are told you are “addicted”….

If you are told you are “fat” or “too fat”….

If you are told you are “too thin”….





….Then what are your chances of recovering?

….How will you ever break free from this label, forcing you into bondage?

If you believe you ARE (insert addiction here), you will be (insert addiction here).

This cycle needs to change….

What if we started saying “Though you are struggling with (depression), you are NOT (“depression.”) You are struggling WITH (depression) and (depression) does not define you. YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE.
You are NOT your addiction, you are so much more than what you are struggling WITH.


Believe in yourself, and don’t fall into this trap. You can overcome this….it may just take time. But that is okay. IT IS OKAY!! Recovering can be a lifelong journey – there is NOTHING wrong with that. Life is a journey, live life.


Remember, you are a child of God…and you have no contract forcing you to be who society wants you to be.


You don’t have to live up to the label you have been given, you are free and are not in bondage.


James 2-3 says: Consider it all joy, my brothers, when you encounter various trials,[a] for you know that the testing[b] of your faith produces perseverance.

  1. 1:2 Consider it all joy…various trials: a frequent teaching of the New Testament derived from the words and sufferings of Jesus (Mt 5:10–12; Jn 10:11; Acts 5:41).
  1. 1:3–8 The sequence of testing, perseverance, and being perfect and complete indicates the manner of attaining spiritual maturity and full preparedness for the coming of Christ (Jas 5:7–12; cf. 1 Pt 1:6–7; Rom 5:3–5). These steps require wisdom (Jas 1:5).


It may seem difficult to see these trials as “joy.” However, if we read the footnote for ‘b,’ we can see the trial is worth it….striving to overcome obstacles are worth it in God’s eyes. As long as we are persevering (it doesn’t matter if you succeed or not, we are human and definitely not perfect), then we will build the three theological virtues: faith, hope, and love.



What are some ways to break addiction?

*Reach out to someone you trust and feel comfortable talking to about what you are going through

*Seek local services if available (try to reach out to a professional in some way)



* To Write Love on Her Arm: ( )

*National Eating Disorder Association:  ( 1-800-931-2237 )


If you are in immediate danger, reach out to the following for further support:

*National Suicide Prevention Hotline: ( 1-800-273-8255  )

*Crisis Text Line: Text START to 741-741)

Routines and Balance

Monday Day Routine:

Morning routine: Your alarm goes off

You wake up

You brush your teeth

You wash your face

You have breakfast

You shower

You get dressed

You go to work

You have lunch

You go back to work

You come home from work

You have dinner

You maybe have some free time

Night Routine:

You brush your teeth

You wash your face

You go to bed.

Tuesday Day Routine:

Morning Routine: Your alarm goes off

You wake up

You brush your teeth

You have breakfast

You shower

You shower

You get dressed

You go to work

You have lunch

You go back to work

You come home from work

You have dinner

You maybe have some free time

Night Routine:

You brush your teeth

You wash your face

You go to bed.

Wednesday Day Routine:

Morning Routine: Your alarm goes off




You get the point.


Obviously, our lives are full of routines. Every day is a routine and within that day routine, you have other routines to follow.


Honestly, can we just call these routines a “ritual?”


Each day is a routine/ritual…which isn’t all that bad. I mean, you’re getting everything done that you need to….so you think.


….Where’s the BALANCE?


You might be thinking “well I am balanced…I’m getting everything done, I am going to work to make money, I am eating, I am sleeping a good amount, I have time to play with the kids, and I even have time to take care of myself, and I am reaching out to the community….and you’re telling me I’m not balanced?!”


Well…you’re just not balanced…there, I just told you. Are you really getting everything done that you need to if you’re just operating like a robot?


You have to break out of this cycle. Yes, we are humans and routines are part of what keeps us going. However, we also need to break out of the same routine – Find something to do different each morning or each evening. Add something to your schedule or take something away. If you don’t, you won’t grow.


You see, life is a journey. And if we don’t change up our daily routines, we won’t grow or learn to overcome challenges you may face in your daily life. In order to overcome challenges, you have to challenge yourself…and you’re not challenging yourself if you’re doing the same thing every single day.


Let these rituals go…be free.


To find balance, you must reach a high frequency. You have to be low to be high; you know you are high when you realize that you have been low. You cannot reach homeostasis until you have been low, because your high is the “balance.”


How is your high “balance”? Well… when you are radiating at a high frequency, you are not really “high.” What happens to radiate at this high frequency is that you have allowed yourself to let go of the negative energy that has been controlling….you finally are dissociated with your ego. You are no longer controlled by your ego when you are radiating at such a high frequency. Instead, you are allowing all the positive energy and life-giving energy fulfill you.

We were never meant to be under the influence of our ego. This is why when you are radiating at the higher frequency, you aren’t really “high”….you just reached homeostasis…balance. You reached the frequency in which we are supposed to radiate (this frequency is our natural frequency).


But to reach the frequency you’re supposed to be at, you have to challenge yourself! Break out of the everyday ritual – rituals are controlling your life. Don’t allow the matrix or the ego to take hold of your life. Find balance. Break free. Be free.



Peace and Love.



E. Nicole